So, Mike is leaving in the morning for Sitka. I really wish I could go with him. I love Sitka, and I haven’t been there in awhile. However, I am stuck with working this week. So Mike is going to leave in the morning to go over to the ferry with my dad. Then he will be back on Friday night on the ferry. So until then I will be at home, lonely, with my mom but oh well. This trip to Sitka should open up more opportunities for Mike which is good.
So this week you will be seeing more blogs from me because I promised Mike a blog every day while he was gone.
I also wanted to post on here tonight that I found the picture of Mike, Bryce, Me, and Dick on Anchorage Daily News with Mike’s first Halibut. It was very interesting. I am guessing Bryce must have submitted it. You can view it at
I also ran across this old site of Sam’s that had our old Romania stuff on it… The journal from our group, and some photos and whatnot. I plan to do something with my Romania stuff, and my photos here in a few weeks. It is at I bought Ilife 09 and it sounds like it will have a lot of great options for designing a webpage with that stuff on it. So you can look forward to seeing that. Anyways, I think I am going to head off to bed. Hope you all had a great weekend, and a great week ahead of you. Oh yeah, and we also had two people die this past month in Coffman Cove. Very unusual. It’s kinda sad, as everyone here kinda seems like family because you know them so well.

So, I haven’t wrote a blog in awhile and figured…. It was time for ya all an update.
I have been pretty busy working 3 or 4 jobs most of the time. I have been cleaning up our new school getting it ready to move into, subbing at school, subbing at the post office and doing the whole AmeriCorps thing. However, I have been having a lot of trouble getting enough hours for my AmeriCorps job. I am suppose to get 40 hours a week, but I have only been running about 35 hours on average. Which sucks. So if ya all have some ideas on some projects either enviromentally, community wise, or students wise then feel free to comment with some ideas for me. They would be greatly Appreciated.

Right now for AmeriCorps I have started an Archery program with the students and they seemed to really enjoy the first day. We are going to be doing this three days a week. Also, Mike & I have been working together to find out information on some recycling stuff that way we can start that up here in Coffman Cove maybe…. Eventually.

Hmm… What else has been going on in the life of Sabrina and Mike. Oh yeah. I really want a baby. There was a slight scare. But it appears that I am in fact not pregnant so that is good and bad both on the same note. I mean on the good news if I wanted to I could go celebrate my 21st birthday, but then again…. I dont get a baby. What I have been wanting. So its kinda a catch 22 deal either way…. It sucks, and is good. Oh yeah, and our friend george is having a baby… So it would be kinda kool for our kids to grow up together but oh well. It will all work out in due time.

I also looked at the americorps calendar today and it appears that I am going to be gone the week of Mikes birthday & his sisters wedding. So I think Mike is a little bummed about that, but theres really nothing I can do about it. It is in fact beyond my control. However, I feel bad.

I bought me a wii. I think I will love it. However, it still has not come in. Knowing my luck it will come in this coming week and then I will have to wait a week to play it becuase my dad will be home. But oh well.

I am also thinking about getting me a new macbook or maybe a macbook air. But am not sure yet. Also, would get a bigger Ipod right now I have an ipod touch 8 GB And I only have 3 GB of space left or maybe less dont know the exact amount….. So what do you guys think are the two things worth spending the money on?

Well, anyways, I think that is all for now or should be it was quiet a long blog. I will try to update my blog more often with updates and whatnot. Maybe I will try getting some of my famous jokes up to. Hope you all have a good weekend.

Well, I suppose by now ya all are wondering how my vacation to Montana and to Coos Bay has went. Me myself am not sure. It seems as if, life just isn’t right. In the first place I didnt really want to go to Montana when it was time to go. It seemed as if it just wasnt the right thing to do, because of some of the previous incidents with Michael. However, putting aside everything that happened I packed up my bags and headed off to Montana. After a long day of traveling, and being stuck at the Seattle airport we arrived in Kalispell, MT. It was frigid, yeah, thats what the news said. It is frigid today you are advised to stay inside, and dress warm. First time I have ever heard that on the news. But at this point it was like 4 in the morning so all we wanted to do was sleep…..

However, things never worked as planned we all know that…….

So, here comes the next event of our trip……

Here I am in Montana with Michael, laying on Mikes sister Amanda’s living room floor ready to fall asleep. And apparently Michael has something he wants to talk to me about. He didnt buy a plane ticket home. Yep you got that right. He was not planning to come back to Alaska with me. So, at the point of him telling me this I am just ready to leave, but well there is no way to get out of there. I’m stuck. And Mike has decided after 5 minutes at his parents house that well, this just isn’t going to work out. I can’t stay here he said. So, we looked at some plane tickets, and I ended buying Mike a plane ticket back to Coos Bay, and changed my flight to the next day.
Now here we are in Coos Bay, for awhile everything went great, we got along, were honest with each other for probably the first time in our relationship. However, I found out some things that slightly ruined the idea of us staying in a relationship. The biggest thing is that my cousin recently had a baby. Me myself has always wanted kids. And come to find out Mike doesnt think he wants kids, and doesnt know if he wants to get married. So imagine how this breaks my heart. I didnt know how to respond and honestly still dont.

Then…..

Not only does this happen but I even begin to learn more things about Mike, his past, his present, and just him overall that are bubbling inside me, my mind, and I just dont know how to feel about them or what I should do. I mean I am not saying I’m perfect, but the main thing in my mind right now is how someone can be so deceiving, untruthful, and yet act like they love you more than anyone in the world. I love the guy. I honestly do, but how should I feel? What should I do? He needs some things that alaska really can’t offer him, and well, he really hates alaska. What do I do let him go, and allow the situation to break my heart? or tell him that I truly still love him, and I can’t stand for him to stay behind. Anyways, I think this is all the information I can offer you on the situation. Point being… As of Sunday, December 28th, 2008 I do not know if Mike will be coming back to the state of Alaska with me.

I am truly hurt by this simple fact……

I will keep you updated on my situation as well as Mike’s and the information that he will allow me to share with you all.

However on the bright side I have gotten the job with Americorps and am greatly happy about the whole situation. I just need to get some paperwork faxed and mailed off and the beginning process of that job will be done. I will also keep you updated in this situation.

So, Today I filled out an application to work as a volunteer through AmeriCorp. They have a program through RurAL CAP for Health and Ecology volunteers within communities. It so happens that Southeast Island School District was looking for an individual that would be interested in applying for this position. If I were to get this position it would mean that I would help out within our community with various volunteer efforts. Including things such as but not limited to, Recycling, Greenhouse, Clean-up, and helping within the local classroom. This would benefit our community greatly. So hopefully I will receive this position. It would get me 1200 a month and then after a year I would get 4700 towards school. Which is great! This would also mean that for a week during January I would be traveling up to Anchorage where I would attend classes on how to be a successful AmeriCorps member, and provide me with some ideas to implement within the community.

Secondly, Mike and I still have not bought our tickets to leave Montana. I guess we should do that relatively soon. It would most likely be a good idea. I have been working a quiet bit within the last month or so. Which is great, I have been earning some money, which helps me out with car payments and what not.

Also, Mike got his teeth fixed yesterday! They look great, however, they have seemed to be painful for the last couple days. Which sucks. But I guess he shouldnt have went and broke his teeth as a kid… Lol Kidding.

Anyways, Hope that ya all have a great weekend!