Well, I suppose by now ya all are wondering how my vacation to Montana and to Coos Bay has went. Me myself am not sure. It seems as if, life just isn’t right. In the first place I didnt really want to go to Montana when it was time to go. It seemed as if it just wasnt the right thing to do, because of some of the previous incidents with Michael. However, putting aside everything that happened I packed up my bags and headed off to Montana. After a long day of traveling, and being stuck at the Seattle airport we arrived in Kalispell, MT. It was frigid, yeah, thats what the news said. It is frigid today you are advised to stay inside, and dress warm. First time I have ever heard that on the news. But at this point it was like 4 in the morning so all we wanted to do was sleep…..

However, things never worked as planned we all know that…….

So, here comes the next event of our trip……

Here I am in Montana with Michael, laying on Mikes sister Amanda’s living room floor ready to fall asleep. And apparently Michael has something he wants to talk to me about. He didnt buy a plane ticket home. Yep you got that right. He was not planning to come back to Alaska with me. So, at the point of him telling me this I am just ready to leave, but well there is no way to get out of there. I’m stuck. And Mike has decided after 5 minutes at his parents house that well, this just isn’t going to work out. I can’t stay here he said. So, we looked at some plane tickets, and I ended buying Mike a plane ticket back to Coos Bay, and changed my flight to the next day.
Now here we are in Coos Bay, for awhile everything went great, we got along, were honest with each other for probably the first time in our relationship. However, I found out some things that slightly ruined the idea of us staying in a relationship. The biggest thing is that my cousin recently had a baby. Me myself has always wanted kids. And come to find out Mike doesnt think he wants kids, and doesnt know if he wants to get married. So imagine how this breaks my heart. I didnt know how to respond and honestly still dont.

Then…..

Not only does this happen but I even begin to learn more things about Mike, his past, his present, and just him overall that are bubbling inside me, my mind, and I just dont know how to feel about them or what I should do. I mean I am not saying I’m perfect, but the main thing in my mind right now is how someone can be so deceiving, untruthful, and yet act like they love you more than anyone in the world. I love the guy. I honestly do, but how should I feel? What should I do? He needs some things that alaska really can’t offer him, and well, he really hates alaska. What do I do let him go, and allow the situation to break my heart? or tell him that I truly still love him, and I can’t stand for him to stay behind. Anyways, I think this is all the information I can offer you on the situation. Point being… As of Sunday, December 28th, 2008 I do not know if Mike will be coming back to the state of Alaska with me.

I am truly hurt by this simple fact……

I will keep you updated on my situation as well as Mike’s and the information that he will allow me to share with you all.

However on the bright side I have gotten the job with Americorps and am greatly happy about the whole situation. I just need to get some paperwork faxed and mailed off and the beginning process of that job will be done. I will also keep you updated in this situation.

So, Mike and I have been working on reproducing a site that we once had up called Audiofics. So far we have gotten 10 chapters of one audiofic uploaded. If you are interested in reading the audiofic it is a Harry Potter fanfic, and you can access the story from our site Audiofics.net If you have any suggestions on stories that you would like to see on there email us at admin@audiofics.net and we will look into getting them up.
Secondly, Mike and I have been trying to get arrangements for going South and whatnot, unfortunately were trying to figure things out becuase the flights are mostly full so there isnt really going to be room for Michael’s dog. So Mike is going to call Monday and see if there is any way we could get seats that have room for his dog and whatnot. So hopefully we can figure something out.
Well, anyways that is all I got for right now. Hope ya all are having a good weekend. Also I will post a joke here momentarily. Havent posted one in awhile now.

So, Today I filled out an application to work as a volunteer through AmeriCorp. They have a program through RurAL CAP for Health and Ecology volunteers within communities. It so happens that Southeast Island School District was looking for an individual that would be interested in applying for this position. If I were to get this position it would mean that I would help out within our community with various volunteer efforts. Including things such as but not limited to, Recycling, Greenhouse, Clean-up, and helping within the local classroom. This would benefit our community greatly. So hopefully I will receive this position. It would get me 1200 a month and then after a year I would get 4700 towards school. Which is great! This would also mean that for a week during January I would be traveling up to Anchorage where I would attend classes on how to be a successful AmeriCorps member, and provide me with some ideas to implement within the community.

Secondly, Mike and I still have not bought our tickets to leave Montana. I guess we should do that relatively soon. It would most likely be a good idea. I have been working a quiet bit within the last month or so. Which is great, I have been earning some money, which helps me out with car payments and what not.

Also, Mike got his teeth fixed yesterday! They look great, however, they have seemed to be painful for the last couple days. Which sucks. But I guess he shouldnt have went and broke his teeth as a kid… Lol Kidding.

Anyways, Hope that ya all have a great weekend!

Well, last night Mike and I bought the tickets to go to Montana for a week during Christmas break. This should be very interesting as neither one of us have ever been there. Where exactly are we going you ask….. Whitefish, MT. Yep. It appears that it is a smaller town, so we will see. We were talking about bringing Mike’s brother Josh up to Alaska, but as of right now. I don’t know if that is going to happen. Now all we have to do is buy our tickets down to Coos Bay, which we are having difficulties finding as the airlines just switched.

So I thought that I would update ya all. Haven’t wrote a blog in about a week.

First of all, Yesterday, was elections, to determine who our president was going to be for the next 4 years. And Obama won. Which I was very excited about I have been hoping that he would win. I didnt want to see Palin, Vice President. Alaskas name would have kept going downhill. Well, not only for that reason did I want Obama to be president. Anyways, This will mark a day in history forever. Our first black president.

Secondly, Felton, My nephew has started basketball season. We have went to about 3 of his games. They have greatly improved. In the two weeks that they have been playing. I am very proud of his whole team. They are doing great!

Mike and I purchased our Miles to get flights to Montana with… Its cheaper that way. Now we jsut have to get the tickets. Lol. We are going to leave on the 14th is the plan as of right now.

Anyways, thats about all I have to share right now. Have a good week!

So, it appears that people out there just don’t seem to think that us Mac users should play games. Why do I say this. Because it appears that these online game sites, none of them make their games available to the mac. I have yet to find one, if you know of any that have good games that are available on the mac. I would be happy to know. But for the mean time I am wanting to try out this new stupid Bejeweled twist game that I read about on digg…. And what do you know. Its not available on the mac. At least not of yet.
Anyways, Stupid Mac Games isn’t my only reason for writing this blog. I aslo thought that I would update ya all with what was going on in my life since I haven’t wrote a blog in a while. This past weekend Mike, My mom, and I all went into Ketchikan. I guess it was fun. Although I was wanting to get my hair cut, and it appeared that I must of had a look about me or something because no one wanted to cut my hair. Oh well, life I guess. We also went to the movies with my nephew Shawn and neice Jessica, and we watched High school Musical 3. It was pretty good I seemed to enjoy it. And I think the rest of us did to.
Then we are nearing Halloween this coming Friday. Mike and I are going to make some cute little cupcakes for the kids at school, and we carved our pumpkins today. Tomorrow I will get a picture of us with our pumpkins and upload them onto myspace. Then on Nov. 1st is the Halloween Carnival. So that should be fun. It will be Mikes first time in Alaska for that.
Also, school is going pretty good I guess. However, once again I am contemplating the idea of changing my major. The fact is I have no damn clue what I want to do. Lol. I started out with highschool education, changed to accounting, and am now thinking about the possibilities of early childhood education or business. However, at one point I even contemplated the idea of Special Education. But I really have no idea. If you ask me, maybe I shouldn’t be in college. Maybe I should attempt something like a postal exam, and go for working in a post office.
Last thing, Mike and I are thinking about going to Montana and Coos Bay for christmas. I can’t wait. I have never been to Montana, so that will be an interesting experience. Plus we haven’t seen Michaels family in awhile so that will be good. Then we will get to go to Coos Bay and see my cousins new little baby due the 25th of December!